The Tale of Kenji

The girl on the train

At first she didn’t understand what he was doing, the floating man. It wasn’t how she’d imagined when she’d read it in books. Floating, face-down, in the water. She’d always assumed ‘face-down’ also meant feet up and the whole body horizontal. But that’s not how it was.

            Later she would wonder if it had something to do with the weight of his shoes. Because it wasn’t just his face that was down, his feet were too. Upright, arms outstretched, fingers just breaking the surface of the water. And his chin on his chest, his face down, as if looking for his toes.

            She gave a gasp and half rose from her seat, turning to the couple sitting behind her.

            ‘Did you see?’ she began. Then stopped. Because she could tell from the way their eyes widened that they hadn’t seen and that she was frightening them. That being addressed in English by the only foreigner on the train wasn’t something they were prepared for and that they were desperately forming the set phrase, ‘I’m sorry, I don’t understand’ in their heads.

            She sank back into her seat, embarrassed.

            She thought about pulling the emergency alarm or getting off at the next station to find help. But she knew she wouldn’t and was appalled at what this said about her.

            She was crushed by the enormity of it, the responsibility of being the only witness to the death of a stranger. She felt she should mark his passing with a ceremony of some kind, an act of respect or remembrance, but was acutely aware of the inconsistency of wanting to mourn a death she had essentially ignored.

            What worried her wasn’t that she would be haunted by her vision of the floating man, but that she wouldn’t. That far too quickly she would start to forget, convince herself she’d imagined it, attributing it to the combined effects of jet-lag and being on her own in a strange place.

            So she forced herself to picture it. Deliberately thought about the moment she’d seen him so she would always be able to recall exactly how it had been. The cool, dry air inside the train, the noise of the engine and the rub of the coarse fabric of the seat against her bare legs. Her face reflected in the window, sunglasses and, on the other side, the ugly concrete bridge with the little red car driving slowly across. The glint of the sun off the windscreen as it turned the corner. Then the play of the early morning light over the rippled surface of the river and how his hands seemed strangely orange against the dark of his shirt.

            And it struck her that he hadn’t seemed sad, just floating there. She suddenly thought he hadn’t wanted to be found.

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Kenji Yamamoto

There’s a phone ringing. Not mine and I am alone in the carriage. I run my hand inside the gap between the seat and its back to locate the source. A mobile, three pretty, beaded straps dangling from the handset. I flip it open.

            ‘Who is this, please?’ a woman asks.

            ‘Kenji Yamamoto,’ I say. ‘I’m sorry, this isn’t my phone.’

            ‘No,’ says the woman, ‘it’s mine. Where did you find it?’

            ‘On a train,’ I say, glancing out the window, ‘approaching Takatsuki-shi.’

            ‘Oh dear,’ she says.

            ‘Don’t worry,’ I say, ‘I’m getting off.’

            ‘There’s no need,’ she says, but I pretend not to hear over the sound of the recorded announcement politely reminding me to bring all my belongings with me.

            ‘There,’ I say into the phone, ‘I’m off. Where should I meet you?’

            ‘You mustn’t go to any trouble,’ she says.

            ‘No trouble,’ I say. ‘I’d like to think someone would do the same for me.’

            Eventually we agree to meet in Umeda.

            ‘How will I recognise you?’ she asks.

            I glance down.

            ‘I’m tall,’ I say, ‘just about six foot. Twenty-nine. I’m wearing blue jeans and a long-sleeved T-shirt, black, with the Hanshin Tigers’ logo on the chest. And I’m carrying an umbrella. It’s green. Will that be enough?’

            ‘Yes, I think so,’ she says.

            I make my way to the other platform without giving myself the chance to consider what I’m doing. Because there’s a dangerous thought lurking at the back of my mind and if I stop long enough to acknowledge it, I’ll be forced to admit I’m a fool.

           

I’m standing next to the ticket machines in Nishi-Umeda station. Bright lights. The air hot and stale. Around me lots of movement, lots of noise. I’m watching the crowds as they come up the stairs and approach the barriers. I don’t know what to look for so I look at everyone. At first I notice their differences. A man, a woman, this one old, this one young, tall and short, fat, thin. But after a while I see only their eyes. And so it begins. Like falling. Falling, knowing that the floor is rushing up to meet me but never quite reaching the moment of impact. I feel my stomach clench and a familiar creeping sensation in my scalp. Rasp of metal against metal, taste of rust. There’s a dark spot forming in the centre of my field of vision, growing, obscuring my view, its edges curling like smoke.

            ‘Mr Yamamoto?’

            A voice from behind pulls me back.

            ‘Are you Kenji Yamamoto?’ the woman asks again and I turn, blinking.

            She is my age, maybe slightly younger. Dressed in the usual office-lady uniform: light grey suit, Ralph Lauren handbag, grey shoes with neat little black bows near the toes. She is neither tall nor short and her hair is long, perfectly black and perfectly straight, lips full, eyes wide, skin as white as powdered chalk. Ambushed, I can’t help noticing she’s beautiful.

            ‘I’m sorry,’ I say, ‘I was expecting you to come from the platform.’

            ‘I hope you haven’t been waiting long.’

            ‘Not at all,’ I say.

            I slip my hand into my pocket, pull out the phone and hand it to her.

            ‘Thank you so much,’ she says.

            ‘Please don’t mention it,’ I say, looking for the exit. I give her a faint smile and start to walk away. I hesitate, meet her eyes. Knowing I’m going to regret it, but doing it anyway.

            ‘Would you have dinner with me?’

            I let the invitation hang for just a second. Then I laugh.

            ‘I’m sorry,’ I say, ‘that was stupid. Either you’ve eaten already or you have other plans.’

            ‘No,’ she says, face serious, ‘I haven’t eaten and I don’t have plans.’

            It isn’t until we’re seated in the restaurant that I think to ask her name. Ai Nakamura, twenty-six. She is a dietician in the City Board of Education here in Osaka.

            ‘What about you, Mr Yamada, what do you do?’

            ‘Please,’ I say, ‘don’t be so formal. Let’s pretend we’re American. Call me Kenji.’

            ‘What do you do, Kenji?’ she says, laughing.

            ‘I’m an actor,’ I say. ‘And, when I’m not acting, I make lamps.’

            ‘Lamps?’ she says.

            ‘Yes, lamps. Actually, what I should say is making lamps takes up most of my time but, when I’m not doing that, I act.’

            ‘You don’t get much chance to act?’

            ‘If I were handsome and spoke English and Mandarin like Takeshi Kaneshiro, I might have more opportunity.’

             ‘You’re better looking than Takeshi,’ she says. We both smile and blush and then neither of us knows what to say.

            Our food arrives. Fish, rice, miso soup and daikon salad.

            ‘It must be difficult to learn the lines,’ she says, ‘I know I wouldn’t remember.’

            ‘I’m lucky,’ I say. ‘I’ve got a photographic memory for the things I’ve heard.’

            She laughs, thinking I must be joking. I look down at the chopsticks in my hand.

            ‘Who is this, please? Kenji Yamamoto. I’m sorry, this isn’t my phone. No, it’s mine. Where did you find it? On a train approaching Takatsuki-shi. Oh dear. Don’t worry, I’m getting off. There’s no need. There. I’m off the train. Where should I meet you?’

            I risk a glance. She’s smiling.

            ‘You mustn’t go to any trouble. No trouble, I’d like to think someone would do the same for me… Shall I go on?’ I ask.

            ‘There’s no need,’ she says, ‘I believe you.’

            ‘You can ask me in a year’s time,’ I say. ‘I’ll still remember.’

            ‘I hope you don’t mind me saying,’ she says, ‘but I think you have something of the genius about you.’

            ‘I wish that were true,’ I say.

            ‘You must have done very well at school.’

            ‘No,’ I say, shaking my head. ‘In fact I did very badly. The nail that sticks out gets hammered down.’

            I make a hammering motion with my hand and grin to let her know I don’t mind.

            ‘I’m sorry to hear that,’ she says.

            ‘It’s not important,’ I say.

            I want to tell her that I remember the words because of the images they generate behind my eyes. That bad words form images in front of my eyes and these sometimes get in the way.

            I want to tell her that her words are like cherry-blossom rain and that her name, when spoken aloud, sets off a shower of silver-stars that burst like fireworks.

            I want to tell her I feel like I’ve known her all my life. That I think it might be fate.

            I want to tell her so many things but I’m thinking now may not be the time. I wouldn’t want to scare her.

            Instead we talk about how excited she is about the trip she’s planning to take with her family to Karuizawa, about her younger brother’s crazy tennis obsession and about how sad she felt when her cat had to be put down. And all the time I’m thinking how sweet she is and how much I’d like to kiss her and wondering if, perhaps, she feels the same way about me.

            And suddenly we’ve finished eating. I ask if she wants desert, but she doesn’t and I pay the bill.

            ‘Thank you,’ I say, ‘I have enjoyed talking to you very much.’

            ‘Thank you,’ she says, ‘for returning my phone and for the meal.’

            ‘Perhaps we can do it again some time?’ I say.

            ‘Yes,’ she says.

            She is not answering me. She is answering her phone.

            ‘Yes. Okay, I won’t be long. Okay. I love you too. Goodbye.’

            She smiles apologetically.

            ‘I’m sorry, Mr Yamamoto,’ she says. ‘I’m afraid I have to hurry. My fiancé has finished work earlier than expected and wants me to meet him.’

            ‘Of course,’ I say. ‘It’s been lovely, Miss Nakamura, a genuine pleasure.’

            Outside the restaurant we are strangers, setting off in opposite directions.

            I walk.

            To say that I barely notice where I’m going would be a cliché. And a lie. The truth is I am more aware of my surroundings than usual. All the small things, the tiny details. Neon. Heat rising from the tarmac. The harsh florescent lighting inside the pachinko parlour, crazy clatter of the balls and the smell of cigarette smoke.

            The derelict, raiding the trash-cans in the dark side-alley. Seeing me looking, he turns away.

            The girl at the bus stop, too busy looking for answers in her mobile phone to notice me.

            The salary-man, stumbling drunk from the snack-bar, arms round the hostess’ waist, hailing a taxi to take him home to his wife, high-pitched laughter. I have to stop dead to avoid crashing into him.

            And so I walk.

            Away from the centre of the city, out to the suburbs and into the night. The electric buzzing of the cicadas. A yellow moon hanging low and full over a field of sunflowers. After that, the river and a bridge where I sit. Watch the warm sun coming up. Another cliché.

            Ai Nakamura.

            I replay our conversation in my mind, best bits on repeat.

            ‘You’re better looking than Takeshi…’

            Ai Nakamura.

            Her name whispered in my heart like a sigh and I watch the sparks fall and vanish into the water.

            Ai Nakamura.

            It makes no sense to fall in love with someone I’ve known for so short a time but as I sit and consider I realise it couldn’t have been any other way. Her words betrayed her and I know her completely.

            Ai Nakamura.

            Until this moment, this feeling, I never believed in love. Love and loss. Like flying and falling at the same time.

            Ai Nakamura.

            On the wall of the bridge I stand. Deep breath and then leap into the sunlight. I am flying. Then, finally, the moment of impact.

            The water is cool. For a time I just float, squinting up at the sun. Then I lower my face and breathe. It requires determination, drowning, deliberately filling your lungs with water. Every instinct cries out against it. It hurts. And I am afraid. Not of dying, but of what people will say.

            Ai Nakamura.

            They’ll say she could have been anyone. Another lie and to live without her would be to come to believe it. A different kind of death.

            I am expecting the light to slowly fade, but it doesn’t. A pattern of rough, criss-cross lines appears in front of my eyes, rusty red, like blood. Like blinds snapped shut in front of an open window. I panic. I don’t want to die alone.

            And then I am on the outside, looking in. I see the man, floating in the water, the train racing by, a fleeting glimpse of the pale face of a foreign girl at the window.

            And I’m thinking, in that moment, the girl on the train understood.

The Untimely Death of an Imaginary Friend

By the time I throw myself over the wire fence and lay my head on the train tracks, I’ve been dead for seven years. Dark and quiet, the only sound is the distant roar of traffic on the bridge into town. I can see the stars. The dew seeps into my clothes and I’m shivering. Should have worn a coat. I press my face against the rail, feel the cold, hard steel biting into my cheek, sober up a little. Noah Jackson. My name. I don’t know who I am anymore.

            I guess you’re wondering why I’m here? I know I am.

            Typically, it’s about a woman. Maybe. We met online so she could be anybody. A ghost in the machine. Except I didn’t think she was just anybody, I thought she was The One. My soul mate. So I’ve left my wife and abandoned my unborn child. For what?

            I.

            Hate.

            Me.

            I am my father.

           

I’m sitting at the kitchen table and it’s morning, sunlight streaming through the open window, the drone of a lawnmower and the scent of cut grass on the breeze. Summer, because I’m wearing shorts. I’m four years old. My earliest memory.

            My mother is standing at the sink in her dressing gown. She has her back to me. It must be Saturday because it’s cartoons on the telly, all manic laughter and crazy sound effects. There’s a bowl of cornflakes in front of me. I’ve got the spoon in my hand, but I’m not eating. I have to do the maze on the back of the cereal packet first. In the place opposite me there’s an empty bowl and a spoon. They belong to Jason Christmas.

            The back door opens and my father comes in, smoking one of the scruffy cigarettes he rolls himself. He flicks the butt into the garden before shutting the door. He kicks off his boots, scattering grass cuttings across the floor, then pads over to the table in his socks, leaving large, sweaty footprints on the tiles.

            ‘You can’t sit there, Daddy,’ I say.

            His hand rests on the back of Jason Christmas’ chair, about to pull it out.

            ‘You can’t sit there,’ I say again. ‘Jason Christmas is sitting there.’

            ‘How long,’ my father asks, turning to my mother, ‘do we have to put up with this shit?’

            She doesn’t answer.

            ‘I said,’ he shouts, ‘“How long do we have to put up with this shit?”’

            The air turns to ice, frozen, as if we’ve suddenly noticed we’re standing, precarious, at the edge of a cliff, not knowing how we got there but understanding that if we so much as breathe we’ll tumble over the precipice, our bodies dashed to pieces on the rocks beneath.

            See how we fall.

            Time speeds up but we’re moving slowly, groggy, like sleepwalkers. Going through the motions of a habitual dance, barely conscious of the steps.

            ‘There’s no harm in it, Dave,’ my mother says.

            ‘No harm,’ he says, ‘no harm? I can’t even sit at my own bloody table!’

            ‘Calm down,’ my mother says, ‘what will the neighbours think?’

            ‘Don’t tell me to calm down! This is my house and I’ll do whatever the hell I like!’

            In one fluid motion my father sweeps the empty bowl and the spoon onto the floor, reaches across the counter and slips the largest knife out of the block.

            ‘Jason Christmas is it?’

             He raises the knife and, smiling, rams it into Jason Christmas’ chair, through the plastic cover, the foam and the chipboard so that the point sticks right through to the other side.

            ‘Not anymore!’ he cries as he kicks the seat and wrenches the knife free. The chair falls to the ground. My father falls to his knees and stabs the seat back again and again and again, accompanied by a sudden burst of frenzied laughter coming from the telly.

            ‘What’re you doing?’ my mother says, frantic, still thinking of the neighbours.

            He stops.

            He puts the knife on the draining board and bends down to pull his boots back on.

            ‘Dave? Where are you going?’

            He opens the door and steps outside.

            ‘To bury the body,’ he says.

            He lets the door slam behind him without bothering to look back.

I can hear the train approaching. A low rumble at first, then louder, clackety-clack, clackety-clack, in counterpoint to my heart. Then it’s here and sound becomes my entire world, tearing my soul apart.

            And then it’s over.

            I’m still here. A sign? Maybe.

            Now watch me weep.

I'm with you in Rockland

She writes.

Desperate, raging vitriol penned in scrawling blue ink. Accusing her doctors of professional misconduct and of insanity and of stealing her underwear while she sleeps, sedated and innocent and helpless. Demanding sanity trials and industrial tribunals and compensation for the loss of dignity and injustice she has suffered, and is still suffering as we speak.

And yet nothing is done.
She cajoles, begs and pleads, and threatens to go on hunger strike and to starve herself to whichever comes first: death or size zero. To throw herself through the window and into the approaching twilight and onto the mercy of the cold concrete beneath.

Or her mobile phone.

Which actually happened one time when she accused it of hypnotism but no one believed her because they all knew she’d been talking to it continuously for seventy hours. Yackety-yak, yackety-yak, her internal monologue spewed forth in a torrential stream of consciousness until her voice, no more than a sigh, whispered words of wisdom and every particle of her being vibrated with the knowledge of good and evil.

            And now? The electric hum of florescent strip-lights and pine-scented disinfectant and angels watch over her slumber.

While she sleeps, dreamless, in institutional armchairs, the dying sun bleeds into indifferent hills. The vapours that trail in the wake of roaring aeroplanes crisscross the evening sky like the memory of failed suicide attempts.

She is a mountain.

The rolling hills of her flesh cascade like waterfalls beneath the folds of her simple, cotton dress. Her chin has already dissolved and her face is slowly melting into her collar. A hump of fat has formed at the back of her neck. Her scalp shows through thinning hair. There are gaps in her mouth and the teeth that are left are yellow as is her skin.

You don’t need to be afraid.

            As the street lamps outside flicker one by one she opens her eyes.

            ‘Why didn’t you wake me?’ she asks.

            ‘You looked so peaceful, it seemed a shame.’

            ‘Remember that time when I would only eat carrots for three weeks and my skin turned orange?’

            ‘That was yesterday,’ I remind her.

            ‘Oh,’ she says. ‘Remember that time when I kicked the crutches from that lady and she was furious because I’d healed her on the Sabbath?’

            ‘That was just a song you heard on the radio,’ I tell her.

            ‘Well, then, remember that time when I OD’d for the second time and afterwards I was psychic and could hear what people were thinking, and then I cast a demon out of the man at the bus stop and he called the police and they said there was no law against praying?’

            ‘Yeah, I remember that.’

            ‘They didn’t know what else to do so they called an ambulance.’

            ‘That’s what happened,’ I say.

            The nurse comes in carrying a tray and a tiny pot of pills and an empty cup and a jug of tap water.

            ‘Who are you talking to, Naomi?’

            She searches the room for inspiration.

            ‘Myself,’ she is finally forced to admit.

Song of Songs

The valley floor shimmers like a dream in the haze. I squint into the glare and try to spot any movement along the base of the hills which form the sides of the valley. Five nights have passed since I first noticed it creeping low on its belly, keeping its distance and hiding at the edge of my vision. I thought I would never see another living thing, but it’s still following me, the wolf, so thin and full of want. It’s no longer afraid and trots along in plain view, kicking up the dust no more than fifty yards behind me. Sometimes it gets so close I hear it pant, tongue lolling from the side of its mouth, and I imagine I can taste its fetid breath on the breeze. It is thirsty but there is no water here.

            The parched earth is cracked, baked dry in the searing heat of the sun. Nothing grows in this arid ground, littered with the skeletal remains of fallen trees, branches bleached white, grasping for the sky like human hands raised in supplication. Throughout this wasteland lie piles of smouldering rubble and the air is thick with ash and soot and the acrid smell of sulphur and smoke.

            At night the temperature plummets and, on the ridges that run along the hills, I see the tiny lights of a thousand fires, burning in the dark. The fires have replaced the moon and the stars which vanished from the night sky, extinguished without warning or explanation.

            Every evening I light a fire of my own. The dry wood crackles and sends sparks high into the air. It burns too quickly and it’s difficult to find enough to keep it lit through the long watch of the night, but I need the warmth and comfort it provides. The wolf, too, draws near to the heat. In the morning it will shrink away like a shadow but, for a time, we are at ease in each other’s company. At dawn the chase will begin again, though the line between hunter and hunted has become blurred.

            One morning, I awake to find the wolf still lying beside the dying embers of the fire, though the swollen sun has already risen. Its breath is shallow, pained and, when I approach, it whimpers, unable even to lift its head. It rolls its eyes in warning and its lips form a soundless snarl.

            I find a suitable rock, heavy but not so heavy it can’t be moved. Weak from lack of food and weary from the journey I struggle to carry it over to the wolf.

            This is what I’ve been hoping for but there is a part of me that’s sorry to say goodbye.

            The wolf’s head caves with a sickening crunch. My stomach revolts and the bile rises in my throat. I’m struck by a fit of coughing and, when I bring my hand away from my mouth, my sleeve is streaked with blood.

            I set to work with my knife. When I am done, I rebuild the fire.

            When the meat has begun to cook, I notice a figure approaching from the direction I have come. A man, the first I have seen since I entered this place, forty days ago. I sit back on my heels and watch, calculating.

            He seems to be at least my height, but broader. He does not hurry, neither does he appear to find his journey arduous, though he must have been walking for days. He is dressed much as I am, with his body covered and a scarf wrapped around his head to keep off the sun. This he has tied across his mouth and nose to keep out the dust and smoke. All I can see are his eyes and, even from this distance, I can see something unusual in them. It is a look I haven’t seen in a long time, as though he is of the living and not one of the walking dead.

            When the stranger is almost upon me I avoid his gaze, busy with the fire. He sits on the ground and removes the cloth that covers his mouth. He asks my name and for water. I tell him I am Adam and, though I have little water left, let him have a cup.

            ‘Thank you,’ he says, and drinks.

            When he has finished, he gazes back the way he has come. There’s something strange about his face as he does this. It’s not the usual look of incomprehension people wear when they contemplate the desolation. Instead he seems at peace.

            ‘What brought you this way?’ I ask.

            ‘Searching for a sheep that was lost,’ he replies.

            ‘Nothing could survive this valley. Even the wolf was almost dead before I killed it,’ I say, on my guard, sure he must be lying.

            ‘There’s always hope,’ he says with a smile. ‘What brought you here, Adam?’

            ‘I’m also looking.’

            ‘For what?’

            ‘The Song of Songs.’

            His lack of surprise is so disconcerting that I feel compelled to explain.

Her name was Zoe, which means eternal life.

            While she lay sleeping on a pile of blankets on the floor behind the chest I’d pushed against the door the night before, particles of dust and lint skated on currents of air which were already thick and hot, even so early in the day. The tattered curtains were caught in the breeze that drifted through the open window and as they shifted, so the light played across her face as I sat watching her sleep. Her hair, splayed over her pillow, glinting in the light like coils of spun gold against her skin as pale as honey. Her slender arm trailed onto the bare floorboards and I could have wished that the moment would last forever.

            I saw her fingers start to twitch. She opened her eyes and smiled.

            ‘I had the best dream,’ she said.

            ‘Was I in it?’ I asked and she laughed, pinching me playfully on the thigh.

            ‘In my sleep I heard a song about a love so pure that it could heal the whole world and restore everything that’s been lost so the world would be even better than before. Anyone who heard it would never be hungry or sick or sad. A song that could even bring the dead back to life.’

            ‘That’s a good dream.’

            I squeezed her shoulder.

            ‘I have to get water.’

            I stood, snaked my trousers over my hips and jammed sockless feet into my shoes.

            I hadn’t imagined people would keep buying and selling right up until the end. I thought by then they’d have realised how worthless money was. But people were still willing to exchange food and water for gold, and I had our wedding rings.

            I moved the chest and, unlocking the door, I warned her to shut it behind me and not to open it until I got back. She watched me go, so trusting and sure.

            In fact, I was longer than I had expected and, by the time I returned, the evening was already approaching. I knocked three times on the door, waited, and then knocked once more. There was no sound on the other side. Softly, I began calling her name, thinking she might have fallen back to sleep. There was no reply. I began to panic and, putting down my jerry cans, I began to bang loudly on the door, no longer worried about who might hear.

            I took a few steps back and then launched myself against the door. It rattled in the frame, but didn’t shift. Again and again I threw myself against it until it splintered and the lock gave way. The chest had hardly moved and I had to squeeze past it to get in.

            Zoe wasn’t there.

            People vanished all the time, we all knew where they’d gone, but this was different. If someone else had been there, they hadn’t come through the door and the window was too high and too small to be used for that purpose. The bedclothes had been folded, neatly, as if, wherever she had gone, she was planning to come back.

            I searched for her and waited and slowly my hope began to die.

           

When I finish my story, I see he has tears in his eyes. Everyone has lost someone.

            ‘At first I didn’t believe it,’ I tell him, ‘I thought it was just an ordinary dream. But then I started to hear rumours of other people who’d heard this song, other people who’d vanished into the air.’

            ‘Do you think if you find it, you’ll find Zoe?’ he asks.

            ‘No,’ I say. ‘Wherever she is now, she’s better off. But, I can’t help thinking that the Song of Songs is the only hope left for us.’

            He seems to be waiting for me to say something else, but I can’t think what it could be.

            I look down at the floor. It occurs to me that there is something strange about his feet. They are clean, despite the dust and days of walking. I look again at his face.

            ‘Are you a ghost?’ I ask him.

            He holds out his hand.

            ‘Touch it,’ he says, ‘are ghosts made of flesh and blood?’

            ‘I don’t know,’ I say. ‘I’ve never met one before.’

            ‘I’m no ghost,’ he says, still smiling.

            ‘Who are you?’

            ‘I’ve got many names,’ he says. ‘Some people have called me the Song of Songs.’

            ‘It’s a song. The perfect song that will undo all this,’ I tell him, gesturing at the barren landscape.

            He shakes his head.

            ‘A love song can only be written by someone, about someone.’

            ‘What do you mean?’

            ‘That love can’t exist by itself.’

            He takes a stick from the edge of the fire and begins to write in the dust.